I probably have stopped writing for so long that now I don't know how and where to begin.

January 4, 2012. Four days since a new year has begun. I look forward to you with a big pressure to stop living like it were still 2011.

My major glitches for the looongest time that need to be left in the past year: n

- starting something and not finishing it
- immediately getting discouraged at one failure
- being so impatient and sometimes ill-tempered
- complaining about so many things
- overlooking my blessings

I want to thank all those who made 2011 a good springboard for 2012. There are so many things and plans left undone and I'll be more than sure that I'll finish them this year.

Okay, let's start with my very first Araneta concert, yay to THE SCRIPT! I was watching the video a couple of minutes ago and the same feeling flowed into my being again. Amazing night.

I opened my very first business, Red Dime Office Supplies hihi. It was my first time to really have a registered business and experience the hassles of going through these government agencies to get my business permit. P.S. I soon realized how corrupt Imus is as there are so many unnecessary taxes that Muntinlupa doesn't have.

I also ventured into the health and wellness industry, one of the biggest industries the world has and is the one expected to be the biggest some years from now. This is according to Bill Gates, when this tycoon was asked what industry will produce the next "him." It was then that I realized how good my persuasive powers are, if I only use them regularly.

I finally met Nicky, my FB crush and who would've expected that this guy that I simply stalked on Facebook would be someone I'd meet because of one stupid act of agreeing to attend a talk with him. He slept at our apartment after the talk(where Sam and I stayed) and was unstoppable in persuading me to join his business. He was so much into it that he did not let me sleep (we talked until like 7am the following day) and resorted to hugging me, five times (desperate act). Gawd, he was such a flirt. I don't know why I am writing about this non-sense thing but it was one of the funniest things I did last year.

But no, we are not a couple now. That night is not and will never be the start of anything beyond business partners. We are just too alike (probably because our birthdays are just 1 day apart) that I cannot stand being with him at times.

I got my own house! Yeeep yeeep. Omygad, I am gleaming with happiness. In 2010, I have started this "tripping" thing even if I did not have any concrete plan of buying. So when I saw this Amaia booth in Lotus Mall (WOW!) and scheduled a visit to the site. I was not really expecting that that weekend was going to be the week when I would acquire my very own house. Of course, I had my mom with me and she too felt that I should buy it. I am so in love with you housie, I'll see you soon!

This property acquisition created a buzz among relatives, as they began asking why in the world did I decide to buy a house. My mom told them that I am soon gonna get married with a tricycle driver. Haha.

I have 0 lovelife and I am looking at you, 2012 as the year for love and me to finally meet! :) I don't want to wake up with "shit, I am 25 I should be getting married now" feeling.

I AM CLAIMING ALL THINGS BEAUTIFUL THIS YEAR.

This year I will...

- find my love, forever this time
- remain pretty hehe
- celebrate the beauty of life every day
- be thankful of the simple blessing of health and safety of my family
- be more aggressive in doing my businesses, enough of the i'm-a-bit-uncertain attitude
- more God-loving

See you again next year! :)

All the Cliche

I miss you, big time.

I love you so so so much. I wish you were here, it would have been easier if I tell it in person.

I couldn't wait to see you again. I love you.

The one who capped the day

Definitely happy :)








What more can I ask for? Haha.

Angels. Talking. Dead Man. Walking.

I LOVE this song. I SUPER LOVE The Script.



I hear the angels talking talking talking
Now I'm a dead man walking walking walking
I hear the angels talking talking talking
Now I'm a dead man
(2x)

I see you standing there but you're already gone
I'm holding your hand but you're barely holding on
I'm kissing your lips but it just don't feel the same
Am I dead there now, left living with the blame
Oh I hear the angels talking talking talking
Now I'm a dead man walking walking walking

Already broken, already gone
Already know you're moving on
I'm a breathing, talking
Dead man, walking
Already see it, in your face
Already someone, in my place
I'm a breathing, talking
Dead man, walking

I hear the angels talking talking talking
Now I'm a dead man walking walking walking
I hear the angels talking talking talking
Now I'm a dead man

We're in the same room just one million miles away
With all these books around but we ain't go two words to say
Am I a dead man now, left living with the shame?
I'm...

Already broken, already gone
Already know you're moving on
I'm a breathing, talking
Dead man, walking
Already see it, in your face
Already someone, in my place
I'm a breathing, talking
Dead man, walking

I'm a breathing, talking
Dead man, walking

I hear the angels talking talking talking
Now I'm a dead man walking walking walking
I hear the angels talking talking talking
Now I'm a dead man

Already broken, already gone
Already know you're moving on
I'm a breathing, talking
Dead man, walking
Already see it, in your face
Already someone, in my place
I'm a breathing, talking
Dead man, walking



Lyrics from: http://www.lyricsmania.com/

I was... moved

Surreal.

No other word to describe that April 16 night. It was nothing less than a dream.

Night before the concert: Feeling the concert fever all over.







Concert Night: RUSH


My very first time in Araneta (I am not a UAAP fan, that's why). Hyuck me so fat.



On our way to Araneta, I was telling Ruby of a particular song that I've been wishing that they'd start off with. And guess what, THEY DID. Imagine how crazy the crowd went as the intensity rose.



I don't really remember that much but it felt like everybody was in a trance (should have written this ASAP). The crowd was screaming like mad, singing every song, waving their glow sticks. I must say the concert was a success because of these amazing, amazing people.
















Okay, so my friends who watched the Maroon 5 concert said that The Script had only 2 songs made popular here. I say, I doubt that Maroon 5 had this much people singing during their concert :) If they had, they would have not pushed a 50% off ticket sale.




And finally, people did not let them leave without BREAKEVEN.



Danny so H.O.T.
BEST SATURDAY NIGHT EVER. :)

Another Dear Joe

It's almost 1:00 in the morning but my fingers are still busy 1) typing and 2) texting.

A little picture of my week: I am utterly busy with our Daet trip preparation. My cousin's getting married and he wants us to come. I had to do a lot of shopping for mama's clothes, make-up practice, and hair styling :)

So tonight, after I finished having my regular hair and make up practice, I finally remembered to get my cellphone in the car to check on my messages. Cellphone 1: NONE, cellphone 2: CHANA (not her real name) and my best friend. Then the story began.

I got two love problems tonight: WHEW.

First from my best friend who just can't throw her skepticism away with her boyfriend's BPI "girl" friends. It sounded funny how someone pretty can be that super paranoid over her boyfriend's peers.

A little background, before, I regularly had those ugly feelings. Like I was too paranoid, too insecured, or too pitiful. Those usually triggered arguments over the simplest things with my bf re: texting his ex. I used to think that she, being pretty, might not have those feelings because she knows for sure that her bf loves her and almost always get the reassurance she needs.

REALIZATION: No, we are basically feeling the same thing! :) She has her own set of insecurities and doubts.

So tonight, after I got her message asking if she could bring Drew (a guy friend whom her BF doesn't really like) with her to the salon where she'd get her hair dyed (colored?) knowing that JM will definitely get angry, I told her she can do whatever she wants with two considerations in mind.


1. If she's doing it so as to give JM a taste of his own medicine, then don't do it. Bigger picture: She wants JM to die out of jealousy and then in the end she can probably say that "e bakit ikaw din naman ah?" (you're doing it, why can't I?)

Relationship is not a competition where you need to give each a heavier shot of pain just because he/she hurt you. It won't work for both of you.

2. If it's nothing but a friendly date and she could assure JM that it is nothing but friendship, then by all means, go.

Onto the next love problem. I won't be using their real names to protect their reputation. Haha.

Chana (my friend) has a boyfriend named Kia. Kia isn't much of a sweet boyfriend type. He can be on his own and Chana is more of a clingy type. Despite the differences, Kia and Chana have made plans of getting married. Fast forward to the present, Chana met her long-time best friend, Cooper. Cooper is what Chana describes as "the one who got away."

She found the concern, thoughtfulness she longed for in Cooper. So they jumped into a relationship, with Kia still in Chana's life.

After that, she doesn't know what to do next. I told her, you cannot have the best of both worlds. It will be totally unfair. Now, the heart can never really decide as to which is fair and not fair. It only knows what makes it happy.

Another detail I forgot to tell is that Cooper is a million miles away so Kia stays with Chana more. Despite the distance, Chana feels happy with Cooper around.

This story sounds really, really familiar. Haha.

Soon Kia found out about the relationship. He gave Chana a chance but, again, found out that he is still communicating with Cooper. He then decided to break up with her. Chana alarmed, texted me to seek my advice. I told her, "you have to choose."

She then told me that she couldn't live without Kia. They made plans and she couldn't just throw everything away. I asked her, what about Cooper? She told me the most wonderful thing on earth: "Cooper is the saddest person on earth and I am his only friend, confidante. But I am willing to throw everything away if that means getting Kia back."

Nice right? But the story doesn't end there.

Tonight she told me the doubts she's having. She told me that it's going to be hell for her with Kia. That Kia told him that his love is being overshadowed by his doubts so it would really be hard to keep the relationship without trust.

This I totally agree with. I told her to ask him what he needs. If it's time and space, then give him what he asks for. This is the only way for him to do his own putting-back-the-pieces game.

Though it is really good to have her around, it feels equally awful as he is constantly reminded of what she has done. I think it will be best to leave him alone, let him ponder, and feel that small pain of missing her, missing the "us."

Through that, he will soon realize that whatever wrong she did, it is never enough to break them. That pain and anger are two momentary and soon-forgotten emotions.

As for her plans for Cooper, she said that she still cannot tell him straight. She can't choose him over Kia, but she cannot easily let him go. She wants to be with him until he learns to be by himself.

Paradoxical right? Haha.

I told him that she cannot do everything and be everything for someone. She has her own problems to think of. Fix them first. It would be hard to tell him that "I cannot live without Kia," but it is a big step towards helping him move forward. It will be really painful on his part but one bucket of tears is better that 100 shots of sorrow, gradually being injected into your system.

I think with this singlehood I become a love consultant. Hahaha. Since I have no love problems to think about.

Funny.

Probably Late

I was reading a couple of messages from my Friendster account.

I started with the 2010 messages. Then I gave up. They were full of anger, pain, misery, and everything negative.

I went for the 2007 - 2008 messages. And these made me smile.

Very nice :) These may be thoughts that have been long forgotten but they surely brought silly, happy memories.

I'm probably not in the right place to say this but I really think that you are one great guy. When I read your messages, it made me really how tiring it was for you to keep the relationship with a moody person like me.

You have always made me smile.

I'm moving slowly from bitterness, thanks to you and to all those who've helped me. Though I don't have the world's most beautiful person, still I am left with beautiful things to think about. Things that I never thought I'd have.

I wish you nothing but the best. I really do. (This should have been an April 29th post.)

You are always in my prayers. I know we don't feel the same pero mahal kita. :) Cheers.